Say it loud, who is my twinflame?
When one travelers as long and as deep as I do, feelings become gateways to new landscapes and bridges. I never know, when moments will take me. Have my knowing helps or changes the unfolding path?
Many years ago, I had a mystical encounter is a very significant way, because I was a child, I barely remember what took place. I never forgot my feelings. Those feelings was a sign of presence of God or at the time I felt, something arrived, warm, kind. It held me long enough that my tears stopped, clouds disappeared and I began to experience something different from any other thing, people, or concept. I met my own soul, too young to understand or explain.
Today, entire world is talking on all social Medias of the phenomenon happening of the shift, rise and transformational consciousness, how we all are love and Divine. Today, we have more yoga classes and meditation than ever been offered on planet. And also we are desperate to connect to peace, finding purpose and get out the rush hours and fast track of daily activates.
Our mind is the trouble maker however most of us are afraid to let it go and let something new takes place. Some of us were blessed to have some kind of mystical experience that provoked us at some point in our part to enquire deeper the meaning of being, asking important questions and not settling unless our hearts say “Yes” to answers. Sometimes there is no answer and again we need to know how to accept.
What makes a mystic; a mystic, is inner authority and unbreakable, unshakable faith in the face of unknown. Today, I began writing daily as it was the case few years back after massive fire in my heart and her initiation. My pen poured out over 500 poetry on this blog, of my encounter with love of my life, with my twinflame. I went to another dimension, meeting love, dissolving in love. I never met the earthy mirror again and that was the most painful human/woman experience in my life. Longing and yearning for a dream. Love seeking an object for her affection, is like a dog chasing his own tail. And god knows, I did chase. I broke every rule, any idea or approach called healthy or unhealthy in love, relationships, and even I went beyond acting on obsession.
It was not need, and yet it was as required as air for my breathing. My heart shattered over years, writing emails, letters, silence, publishing poetry books, an still sometime was burning so deep. It took about real 6 years after that encounter, that veils kept me from seeing the purpose of such a meeting and heart initiation. I took 4 years complete solitude to hear the true voice of a true lover. A profound sense of self took over and realization of who I am. Fire was gone, a warm, sensual river planted in my heart, move in and out of my breath, loving became simple, free with no direction. The man was no longer an object, he was not outside and all these years I chased an reflection of all that was carving, speaking and making love from within.
I just decided to write more, not sure how this will be concluded, here on my blog, in a book, or just an echo inside my mountains.
I have lost my mind and my heart now sees and speaks. The world is no longer the same. I hear all songs and some still invites me to explore the sense of my belonging as a human.
Do I still believe in love and coming together of twinflames, I say, believe has nothing to do with it. I believed in many thing years ago and today I laugh to how small my perception was.
Do I want this to be true? Having a partner, exactly match my vibration, my blue print! Again, I have no say. Either you are awaken or not, if you are not, still dreaming and if you are, neither this nor that, will make any difference.
The world is still here, but my eyes see nothing in the mirror and they are moments, I ask my heart, my divine within, what happened to me?
And I hear a whisper…. You are the happening! There are no walls, no destination, no lover to arrive or leave. You want something when you believe in having… we do no ask every moment of life for air, do we? We do not ask every day for Sun? do We?
Your twinflame, your tribes even, your family and friends, ocean, birds, trees and music, they are all you.
I hear a whisper, gentle, kind, always with a bit of pepper and salt, amazing sense of humor, gazing into not knowing and feeling every moment as it is.
There is no more powerful passion than loving yourself. The rest is just there to serve this purpose, the world, the yoga and meditation classes, lovers, books, aloneness, parties, sex, poetry, dance, music, clouds, blue sky and dark oceans… all together are showing one masterpiece. YOU!