What Surrendering means to YOU?
This morning I posted the above question on my facebook page, friends kindly added their comments either in words or photos.
Hand it over to God, go with a flow, Faith and trust, my reflection,…
Then I looked at Cambridge English Dictionary and found some definition on word “Surrender”
-stop resisting to an enemy or opponent and submit to their authority
-If you surrender to an experience or emotion, you stop trying to prevent or control it
-the act of stopping fighting and officially admitting defeat
Over the last couple of months, I have been asking some deep questions more as a self-enquiry and dialogue. As you saw above, we each have our own vocabulary and set of values and perceptions. Some of us might relate to a word base on its outer reality and manifestation and relation to others and some of us, take it in and exam it with our own inner reality.
Surrendering is a powerful and mysterious verb! In my own inner web of happening. Few months ago, when I moved to Cyprus, a lot of earthy actions were required to get settled. Like finding a right city, flat, get furniture sorted, import my personal effect, sort of residency and the list still goes on…
I moved from a space of solitude and not really be in the world, it was like a fast whirlpool of events and unpredictable changes, fast decisions and accepting the ones that I have no power over controlling them. At some stage, I needed to start my work whatever it feels right, as I have been involved in many branches of self-development and creativity, the possibilities were unlimited. Sometimes, we can do so many different things that our energy could even get scatter and the new circumstance overwhelm us in choosing by our heart than our mind. That was what happened immediately after I kind of settled a bit, I rushed into making things happen. Book venue for my own Poetry performance as an example and then suddenly something happened and I needed to adjust the event to something new, like a Dance event for others.
I noticed, something inside me wants to happen and I am not giving enough space to it, by fear or control, somehow my mind was interfering as I wanted to quickly choose what type of work I want to offer in Cyprus and get my financial rolling.
When spiritual side of journey takes over, which is true in my case, you need to have inner space where life could breathe and moves and it also moves you along the way and many happening becomes effortless and through synchronicity, and that is how universe works and if we really become awaken to Self, we become masters of this ART of being, SURRENDERING.
The last two weeks, due this rush and not giving myself and higher self enough space, I experienced few undesired interactions and outcomes which created chaos and deep heartache for me and what is better than pain and sorrow to teach us! When dream becomes real and too serious that only reflects back that we moved into making things happen, even when we do it with love and openness, if our entire being is not align with it, unconsciously we create a scenario for ourselves that leads us to become more awaken to those lower views and perceptions we carry within our own energy and also belief system. We carry many burdens, our mind before age of 5, created a list of all of should and should not!
For me, surrendering is more than a space than a verb! Do we really a doer even when we sit and pray? What really takes place? How close or far we connect to the source and creator?Is surrendering our last refuge to give up control? What happens, when you say” I surrender.” Something suddenly opens up, a flow, a softness. It feels you now can rest peacefully in what is either in front of you or inside you. We lose our borders, lines of beginning and ending. Suddenly, we feel more intimate with life.
Surrendering is a space to breathe into it. Inner or outer challenge might not disappear, but it lose its power over us, not because we are defeated or lost a fight, there was no fight to begin with. We only fight with ourselves and all we see and perceive only appears in that moment to reflect back our own disability to let more of life in.
The moment we surrender, life takes over and even our body gets more relax, mind might choose to continue the draw new borders, separated and imaginary lines, but it is only in our imagination. If we arrive to this place that makes surrendering possible, we find our way into magic of present.
After the last few days, exploring deeper into the feeling of surrendering, I started to feel more love for myself, getting quiet and slow, just paying attention. I began feeling my soul breathing inside, someone is here and I am not. The I AM, whom makes things happen and try to find the smartest ways to create an income, I noticed these are still layers of skin over the consciousness and the only way, the next stage unfolds or appears is for me, to Surrender!
The next few months, surrendering ( as verb) might look and appear different, because it is just a space, for happening, like a womb. When I arrived, I was far more surrender because I came from silence and even I went through many activities, life was flowing, but as my mind began active and judging and controlling , I became disconnected within and surrendering couldn’t invite me in any longer, so, after few shocks and some drama attacks, the observer immediately took me into NO Action, NO engagement and now again, I feel the expansion of Surrendering within and it will follow to external like any other inner reality, we carry in our energy and vibration.
Being is Surrendering! Embarking the journey with no borders and no idea of faith or trust. No idea of here and there. No idea of control and resistance. It is our ideas that takes us out of Surrendering.
Surrendering is a praise to the soul’s song, like a morning ray of sun on a petal a rose.