Ache and Joy of Crystalline Now.
I wept without tears, this uncontrolled ache in heart always is a messenger of opening to new way of relating. When I look inside, there is no sign of the person, it is more an empty space and then through different events, comes and goes of fellow travellers, some alchemy and magic happens! I look back and have no idea how I got here, have no plan to arrive somewhere else, but with a hint of smile and salt I know, when I let life to takes over, when only in present I dwell, things stop troubling me, I become more playful, in the face of challenges, I weep, laugh and become more impersonal to what I THINK.
On the other hand, my sense of I Am, opens up more to momentary experience of here and now. I welcome the ache in my heart, this not knowing how things will manifest, I want to feel life grasp, in pain and in joy. Let waves of uncertainly wash over my human face and my shimmering soul stands one more time in flames of love and her trust in order of Universe. Present is where I want to be, to surf on highest vibrations and see, feel and be magic(al).