The Remembrance, 21st Sept 2008
At the rim of eternal longing
The forgotten speech of life
This dark void has been
the womb of all my creation,
endless aloneness of my eyes
into forever transformation of love’s horizons.
I lost all human relations
For the sake of a glance exchange
with the immortal lover.
All tales of heroes and demons,
Blue flowers and endless pilgrims,
Faded in darks hours of stillness,
The Cage of unlived dreams of
unity and peaceful embrace with another.
This knowing that no death is the final,
No old or new, could be the saviour of my perceptions.
I have endured living in the polarity of the world
While my bare heart bestowed at
The corner of your walls, next to a fig tree,
Humbled and mad.
Every waves of pain comes lighter than the last one,
That is how years passed by.
Body is heavy, my hair all white,
My fingers forgot how to grasp, how to own a pencil
How to imagine your face
On a white page of hopeful tomorrows.
I am forgotten in God.
Here, has become my companion, my friend,
The light of my heart’s candle.
Aloneness, wide and strong
Slept with me on my pillow,
with no separation, no expectation.
Remembrance was definition of
Endless burn in Flames,
the promise of union.
Heart mission finally completed,
What was began 13 years ago,
on hills of San Francisco,
When he held my hand
And flames burst out from my every cell.
I knew, this love is death of my everything.
Sometimes like a tree,
We lose leaves,
Or like a hairy four legs, shed through seasons.
I do not know, how many layers, seasons are passed,
My heart rusted over all gravities,
To keep just this one memory from my humanhood.
“He is holding my hand, still…holding”
Do not whisper his name,
Cry, cry it over silent lakes and friends
That their comes and goes are faster than trains.
Only clouds could remember the tracks of our foot steps
Beyond sky and stars,
The Invisible path of milky way
Bonded my heart
To ache of his absent and yet so present.
Western winds mocked the threads
Woven between us,
By ancient dreamers.
While our truth was lost
among sorrows and songs.
13 years ago, I said it loud,
And silent made a void out of my voice,
Echoing since, in my daily tears.
“We are in this together,
We are in this forever.”
Now, in this graveyard of human memories
There is a wish waiting in throat on time.
The owner of my heart,
The knower of everything,
Sing something wonderful,
To awake all stones on my grave,
Dusky sky is waiting for the golden ray
To appear with a sign, with a poem
With a daisy,
hopeful for a day full of life
For a kiss, transcendental and pure between equals.
Every hope, dried up, every lute song, played on.
Every pilgrim ended.
Horizons keep changing,
All games of stars and humanity,
All love poems,
Are ended in Void.
In the depth of this dark void,
I am a space covered with scent
of longing, aloneness
seeding hope for
this planet, for every soul
to love unconditional.
I have become so silent,
while everything inside hovering out.
Beneath of my heart,
Is a closed gate,
Between myself and heaven.
I gazed 13 years into my heart,
Waiting for the right time,
Right relation, right mission,
Today, I opened the gate
Let storm and rain wash every relation off,
I alone stand in love.
No road, no companion,
no dream, no hope
I have come to acceptance of who I am.
This longing is me,
This ache is me,
This love is me.
Serena Devi, Istanbul Turkey
21st September 2021